While I was wAlKiNg on the beach the other night, talking to God. I always do that. I was asking him for help. I needed some iNsPiRaTiOn for this blog. I wasn't sure what I was going to write about. After I asked Him, I said, "Ok God, now I'm going to be qUiEt so I can hEaR you. That's really not easy for me to be quiet! I continued walking trying not to think over God. I started getting the above rhyme in my head. I just kept repeating it over and over getting frustrated with myself and then I realized that was what God was telling me. I couldn't quite figure out what I was supposed to do with that little children's rhyme and then it hit me!
That's what I did in my marriage relationship! I took what I got and didn't question it. And hOnEsTLy, I've probably done that in a lot of other instances. And I don't mean not being sAtIsFiEd with what I have and where I am. I'm talking about settling for less than God intended for me! I made up this line for my version of the rhyme, "I had what I had and it turned out real bad!" SoRrY! That's exactly what I did. I thought I had to settle for the inexcusable way I was treated all my life. I always thought that whatever tiny bit of kindness or affection or common decency my ex-husband threw my way, it was good enough. To me, those are two of the worse words in the English language when used together, "good enough!" I thought I should be happy with that. I should sEtTLe. After all, that's what I signed on for, right?
Well ladies, I'm hear to tell you that settling isn't gOoD enough! What I had oVeRlOoKeD for all those years is that my Father is the King (Jesus)! That makes me, the daughter of the King, a princess! That's exciting! I'm a pRiNcEsS! I don't have to get what I get and don't pitch a fit! That said, I'm wAiTiNg on my pRiNcE. A princess should never settle for a fRoG, ever! A few months ago someone told me, "Well maybe you have to settle." I settled the first time, and tRuSt me on that, I had a lifetime of misery. I WILL NOT SETTLE! Not ever again. Having no one is better than sEtTliNg! I am calling my awesome guy that God has pIcKeD out my "soulman," instead of soulmate. I like that because the sOuL is on the inside. This time, I have a list of things that are important to me. I am not going to sEtTlE, period. The outer shell is not as iMpOrTaNt to me as the inner person. My ex-husband had a great outer shell, but was eMpTy on the inside.
I am very eXcItEd to meet my sOuLmAN! I don't know when that will happen, because God's timing is perfect, but I do know that God has piCkEd him out just for me! And because I'm His child, I know I do not have to worry. I will not be diSaPpOiNtEd! Of course, I do hope it's sooner than later. I'm not getting any younger! Thing is, none of us have to settle for or stay in a rElAtiOnShiP that is not good. I wish I had this courage years ago. But this was my time. This was my time to be free and start over! Woohoo!
I LoVe BeInG A PrInCeSs!
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